When my girls grow up…

Mama’s Losin’ ItThis week I’ve decided to join in with Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop because one of the prompts is something that I’ve been thinking a lot about lately. The amazing Leslie from Motherhood in Mexico came up with this prompt and it was just right for me -  Based on their personalities, what do you think your children will be when they grow up?

First off, let me just say that I know that my girls are going to change as they get older. I know I am not even close to the same person I was when I was a kid, so these are strictly predictions based off of their personalities right now. In twenty years, I’ll come back and update you as to how it turned out.

Pumpkin is a total drama queen. She is the girliest girl and is in love with dresses and bows and pink. Although somehow, I don’t see her as an actor or a fashion designer. She is an artist and loves coloring more than anything else in this world. Although somehow, I don’t see her as an artist. No, instead I see her absolute adoration for learning and helping others with reckless abandon. I see her being an amazing student all the way through graduate school and probably becoming a veterinarian or doctor. She has told me before she wants to be a “shot doctor” (aka Pediatrician) and I can totally see her in that role, soothing children as they face the challenges of those mean old booster shots.

Dumpling is the exact opposite. She’s still a drama queen, but not in the same way. Pumpkin’s heart breaks if you look at her wrong. Dumpling, on the other hand, will return those stares of anger and you can just feel the attitude rolling off of her. She looks up to her big sister, but is definitely starting to gain her own independence and ideas of what she wants to do. She is a strong-willed little girl with no patience for broken promises or disrespect. Dumpling is a born negotiator. I see her as a lawyer in twenty or so years. I see her as one of those big, scary corporate lawyers that always win and nobody wants to mess with. I know I don’t want to argue with her most days, and that’s without the negotiation training that lawyers clearly receive.

Yes, my girls are definitely different from one another, but I’m confident that both of their personalities are strong enough to take them far in this life. They know what they love and they show me every day that they are willing to fight for what they think is right. They are going to be strong in their faith and there is going to be nothing that can derail them from their integrity. Most of all, though, they are going to be amazing women, no matter what they do. I can promise you that.

My Aunt Brenda

Since October is National Breast Cancer Awareness Month, pink ribbons have been everywhere – even in the NFL. Every time I see a pink ribbon, I can’t help but think of my Aunt Brenda.

On November 20, 2003, my Aunt Brenda lost her battle with breast cancer. She was 36 years old.

This is a really hard post for me to write. Aunt Brenda was one of the most amazing people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. She was a generous, loving, crafty, nurturing, patient woman. She had a passion for God that was unmatched. She was strong. She was brave. She brought amazing children into this world.

I miss her every. single. day.

I was angry with God for so long after He took her. I was sure that no loving God could possibly have taken such a glorious woman from this earth. It wasn’t until very recently that I let that anger go. God had a bigger plan for Aunt Brenda. Her passing has touched so many people and brought so many people to God. More than could have been done if she were still here with us.

The year that she passed away, I was lucky enough to get to spend a week with my Aunt Brenda and her family in Arizona. God, I miss her. I miss everything about her. I miss the clothes she used to make for her kids. I miss the old school cloth diapers (pins and all) she used on her kids. I miss the doll she made for me as a child that I have lost track of over the years. It breaks my heart that she will never make anything again. Every Christmas, I am able to bring back a small piece of her with the tree skirt and stockings she made for me that last year of her life. She never knew my girls, but she is with us every Christmas now.

I love you, Aunt Brenda. I miss you. I can’t wait to see you again.

What You Don’t Know About Me

There are a lot of things that you probably think you know about me. You know that I’m married. You know that I have two kids. You know that I live somewhere near Atlanta. But, what do you really know about me?

Did you know that I have some brains in this head? I graduated high school 7th in my class (who cares there were only 70 people in the whole class). I was a Presidential Scholar, an Illinois State Scholar and a member of the National Honor Society. I got to wear a pretty yellow rope with my ugly black robe when I graduated. I went to college on a Freshman Honor Scholarship and had a special curriculum that I had to complete in order to keep that scholarship. My second year of college, I switched to a Community College for a free ride they offered me. The rest of my college career was finished at Colorado Technical University Online where I graduated Summa Cum Laude with a GPA of 3.91 out of 4.0. Not too shabby, right? It’s a shame I have no common sense to go along with my book smarts.

Did you know I have yet to figure out what I want to be when I grow up? I’m currently working as a Business Analyst, but I’ve also been a bank teller, a legal clerk, an HR administrator, a debt collector, an underwriter and a customer service rep. Seriously, I’ve done them all. I still don’t know what I want to do for the rest of my career, although I’m leaning toward HR because it was so much fun and always interesting. It’s so frustrating for me to not know what I want. I guess I’ll just have to figure it out as I go along.

Did you know that I’m a Food Network addict? At this very moment, I’m watching The Next Food Network Star. I’m a terrible cook (although I’m learning) but I can’t get enough of this channel! I love Cupcake Wars, Food Network Challenge, Next Food Network Star, Ace of Cakes…almost anything to do with pastry, honestly. Come to think of it, it’s not even Food Network I’m addicted to…it’s food and cooking shows. Anthony Bourdain on Travel Channel, Gordon Ramsay on BBC and Fox, all of them! How can someone so untalented in the kitchen love watching people cook so much?

Okay, so now you know some of my secrets. Your turn. I want to know one thing that I might not have suspected about you if I were to read through your blog. Tell me in the comments!

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